How I Overcame 10-Months of Self-Doubt & Feeling StuckNov 02, 2022
I have a confession to make:
It has taken me 5 days to write this blog post.
My delay is likely not for the reason you might imagine, however. I wish I could say it was because I lacked ideas, topics, or even the sheer will to put my message out there.
The reality is I have a very difficult time focusing.
I am excellent at generating ideas and starting projects and tasks… but unless there is an imminent deadline, I'm terrible at finishing them.
I've noticed in the last year this behavior has seemingly felt worse or at least more heightened compared to past years.
I've always found success in most endeavors I put my mind to, however this year I’ve had an overwhelming, looming feeling plague me every workweek. The reasons for this? Well, success” meant completion, and a feeling of success wasn’t showing up for me since my task list to-dos weren’t checked off and closed out.
I'm a professional coach and a creative, so ideas for countless courses, social content, video topics, coaching programs, and even side hustles flooded my mind week after week.
It created a fire hose effect: I’d go in for a sip, enticed by the excitement and thrill of having fun helping my audience and clients… only to have this same flow overwhelm and knock me down, drown me, and wash away my confidence (and my pride) all in one swell.
If only I’d been focused on the sip at hand - like really ready to dive in and complete it - maybe I would’ve handled it better; known what to do; be prepared for what was coming.
Did I want success and the win enough? Yes. So what was my problem?
I had the motivation. I had the creativity. I had the time and energy to work. Yet I couldn’t produce. I couldn’t bring myself to fulfill.
I began to feel like I was working all the time, spinning all the plates, yet not going anywhere nor having anything to show for it.
This led me to focus on - well - my focus.
I started looking at what was distracting me and my workflow in the first place. I started taking actions most people likely would.
I researched time management.
I purchased new markers and organizational tools for my office whiteboard and my planner.
I looked up fun ways to stay organized and on task.
I tried out 3 different task apps on my phone.
I Invested my time, energy, and money to learn how to fix my focus issue.